Review for Finally Free by Seth Showalter
The author shows an incredible amount of bravery to share his personal journal entries and current perspectives, ten years later.
Before Finally Free: A Surrender to Authenticity I never thought I would enjoy reading a quasi interview between a man and his 10-years-younger self. In typing that full title and smiling while doing it, I realize why I did actually enjoy this nonfiction title. A tongue-in-cheek poke at one of the phrases often used in his experience going through conversion therapy showcases the author’s voice from the very cover. “Surrender to our way of thinking” flipped into something much more inspirational and sustainable.
Seth’s experience at the facility he calls “NH” may not be typical with the horror stories some readers associate with “conversion treatment program.” The techniques used by counselors and therapists don’t leave physical scars, but both journal entries and the interpretations after explicitly show their impact on the author and his psyche. Not the positive one such facilities are supposed to have, but one that buries those issues he most needed to deal with further inside.
The author warns not to skip the introduction, and I reiterate that instruction here. All of the context and author’s life leading up to the actual treatment comes before the real first chapter. Every segment of the book after that introduction corresponds to a day pulled from the journal he wrote in during treatment. The reflections paired with those journal entries, written a decade later, give even more context. The weaving back and forth offers the reader a unique delve further into the mindset of a person confused but hopeful, and still not getting the tools and information he needed.
With each chapter being devoted to the next journal entry or day’s worth of entries, some redundancy can be expected. The person writing that journal probably didn’t expect to make a book out of those entries later on. However, some of the reflections also felt this way. Not just in the sense of an author trying to circle back to emphasize a point, but in the way certain phrases and descriptions were reused quite often. I also would have liked to see more reflection for the author’s experiences after the program.
If you are wanting to read Finally Free for the shock value most media attributes to this topic, you won’t find it. If you want a truly authentic take on one man’s experience going through conversion treatment, please enjoy.
Finally Free: A Surrender to Authenticity is available to buy on Amazon.